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Diary

16th of April Wednesday 2025 I found out my friend DH passed away in the morning. I found out at 5 pm after K called me and told me. I didn't know what to say or how to feel, it didn't feel real. I always thought my life was removed from that kind of thing, that my friend dying could have ever been a possibility or a reality. I guess it is real though. People die so easily. They were a great person, always supporting me and talking to me about anything. I didn't know it at the time but I really enjoyed every conversation I had with them. They had the same passion for art and design that I did, we were always talking about becoming directors in the future to bring our ideas for a TV show to life. Even if it was a ridiculous idea, a dream, I didn't mind because we shared that. We both had a vision for something special. We were gonna both make it there. I know they were gonna make it because they are the most hard working and smartest people I knew. Always working hard. Always asking me for feedback for their work. Always coming to hang out with me at lunch time during high school. Always willing to play videogames or talk with me. If I knew truly how much I meant to them I would have done better. If I were given another chance to hear their voice again I would have talked more. If they asked to hang out or play some videogames I would have agreed every. single. time. If I knew they were suffering as much as they had after high school I would have tried my very best to help. Why did it have to turn out like this. They told K that talking to me and my friend on VC really helped them get through tough times. Every time we talked they would always say how appreciative they were that I was with them. I should have said something back. I should have told them how much I also enjoyed talking to them. I should have told them I loved them as one of my very best friends since middle school. I wish I said something, anything at all. Because now I'll never have the opportunity to ever again. I'll work hard. I swear I will work hard to live up to their image of me. The day we graduated high school and I saw them for the last time, they told me I was their number 1. Their best friend. They looked up to me, put me as a role model as a designer. I'll live up to all of that. I'll try my very best to make our dream a reality. I promise. Rest well. I hope you are unburdened and free wherever you are. Thank you for being my friend. I'll apologize for the rest of my life for not being a good enough friend for you.